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I lost my husband 4/12/11 to cancer after 18 months of treatment. First throat cancer, which we thought we beat, only to find out three months later a second primary in his maxillary sinus cavity. It took his left eye and his hearing was lost, before the beast made its way into his brain. He was the love of my life and a second marriage for both of us. Life is lonely without him and hard to imagine life without him.
It has been 15 months since my spouse left this earthly place. I keep thinking that by now I should begin to notice the joys in my life and begin to find happiness again. Why is this not happening? I know intellectually that I was blessed to have the 16 years I had with him, and I should be blessed and excited for the arrival of my new grandson in October. I have a small family and…Continue
Sometimes I tell myself, that you’re not really gone.
I feel you’re tender touch and no longer feel alone.
I see us walking hand in hand like we use to do.
It’s hard for me to accept.....
That your life on earth is through.
There were so many dreams we had not yet fulfilled,
All The hopes of a future that we were going to build.
All our friends and family have been so very kind,
They try hard to ease my broken heart
And my troubled mind.
It will be one year on April 12, 2012 that I have been without my other half. It feels like I have been through an amputation. Part of me is gone. It is suppose to get better, isn’t it? I find myself on a see saw…. Or as I say, stuck in the twilight zone. I long for my old life as it was… and which will never be again. So…. Okay I am accepting that or have no choice not too. So here I am, not ready to close the door on my old life yet. Maybe it is the fear that my dear spouse will be…Continue