Hi Cali Rose. I'm so sorry for your loss, but you've come to a wonderful place filled with those who understand how difficult this is. I'm also in the Widowed in 2010 group. Joining groups is a great way to get connected to others who have similar experiences. Request some friends, try out the chat room, just immerse yourself in this very special place. I look forward to getting acquainted with you here in 'Widville'.