Something gets on my mind from time to time...especially after attending recent Camp Widow. I am almost 17 months out now. Such a struggle to figure out what my new life is supposed to be without my…Continue
"i have a man who sent me a letter several months ago asking if I would be interested in dinner or something. He's someone i knew from my old work place. I could say more but the big issue for me and pretty much why I said no is because he has…"
Thank you for your comment, lauriesv. I am so sorry we are both here. I have to say that I'm still in a state of shock. Rick and I were married for 32 years...I've been without him since September 2013. I really don't know any other way to operate but to include him in all my thoughts and my actions. It's simply a reflex. I still walk through the grocery store looking for his favorite snacks, hot sauce, chicken wings, etc. I find myself running through the store now staring at only my list so I can get out of there fast! Everything seems to be a chore...before, I didn't mind. I guess another level of grief is opening up before me. Isn't it awful? This is just awful. When am I going to get it through my head and adjust? But talking with others in the same awful boat really helps, doesn't it? I wish you well, fellow traveler. Take good care of yourself. Cindy
lauriesv, I am so sorry for your loss. I just read your story and it so similar to mine. I lost my husband of 35 years on April 29th of this year. He too, was complaining about heartburn for a few weeks. We thought it was just that. He had no other complaints and was taking antacids . He was fine that whole day. We went to visit my mother in the hospital. When we came home, he made himself a cup of coffee and sat on the couch. We talked for a while and then it happened. The paramedics worked on him for 45 min. but there was nothing to be done. I feel so lost. I am in total shock. He was never sick a day in his life. Again, I'm so sorry.
I just recognized you from the other site. I am so dense. If there is one problem I have with grief (besides the sadness, loneliness, etc) it is those lost brain cells! This is the second time today that I really missed the mark!!!
I am so sorry for your loss, lauriesv. I understand your pain. My husband and BFF of 32 years died unexpectedly last Easter. He had recently complained of great fatigue, heartburn and muscle soreness, and blamed a muscle relaxant he was on. I chalked it up to his getting older and slowing down (I am 8 yrs younger than my husband). He went to urgent care where doc said get to ER stat, and that's when they said he had some kind of heart issues (despite naturally perfect cholesterol and b.p. and perfect weight). He died during routine angiogram, right after I told him, before he went in, that he was being a big baby to be afraid of a simple angiogram, which I'd had years earlier. A clot "came out of nowhere" and he had a heart attack and died on the table. Maybe you heard me scream when they told me. My head still spins after 9.5 months, but I get a little better every day. It's two steps forward, one step back all the time.
Welcome lauriesv: I'm sorry for your loss but I'm glad you found your way to this site. I hope you will find the same comfort and understanding here at Widowed Village that I have. In the beginning I just read the blogs and posts and lurked in chat. Post and join in chat when you feel comfortable. It is nice to be among people who "Get It"
So sorry for the reason that you’re here but glad you’ve joined us. You’ll find insight, understanding and support here at Widowed Village. We’re traveling the same road together some further down the road than others. Join a group when you’re ready to get better connected. Participate in a forum and/or chat anytime. If you have questions, feel free to ask. There is always someone around willing to help.