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People tell me I'm a good writer.
People tell me I'm a compelling writer.
People tell me that I write in such a way that my words affect them.
So why can't I express fully, in a way that makes me feel that *I* understand, how much I hurt and how incredibly devastating it is to be a widow?
I look through thesaurus entries:
Devastated: anguised, cheerless, dejcected, depressed, despairing, distressed, down, heartbroken, heartsick,…Continue
Had some moments. Had some tears. Had some sad points.
But I received some beautiful flowers, and got to spend an evening with a friend.
Overall - aside from missing Mark enormously, it was a good day.
I'd have rather had him though. :(
...when I disassociate.
It’s easier to fall asleep when I put my grief into a tiny little box in the furthest recesses of my heart.
It’s easier to relax when my brain isn’t remembering as much about him.
It’s easier to move forward when I’m shut down.
I had a few things today pull the grief out of its box and air it out like all sorts of dirty laundry.
There were many instances of being *forced* to remember.
There were too many moments of “I…Continue