There were so many things my husband loved.
Things I don't watch anymore.
Glee. Oscars. So You Think You Can Dance. Dancing With The Stars.
I don't watch them because I want to share them with him. I go to tell him something, even after all this time. And then... the hurt hits. My heart hurts. I remember what I've lost.
After 32 months. I still get hit in the chest by the pain of…Continue
I get it now. I get why people keep telling me how strong I am. I get why people have expressed admiration for my will to keep moving forward.
I get it.
I'm not broken.
Today is a beautiful day.
Today I honour a man who gave so much, who love so deeply, and who is now at peace.
Today I honour a man who introduced me to more family, who gave me two amazing young men and who gave my older kids an amazing example of what a husband and father should…Continue
I don’t want to die.
I want very much to live.
You need to understand this, in order to read this post.
I WANT TO LIVE.
I want a HAPPY, FULL life.
So… now that you understand that… lets talk about what’s going on.
I want to hurt myself.
I think about taking a blade and cutting across the skin, drawing blood, and creating an intense pain.
I think about this frequently.
Usually while I’m fighting tears.
Why? you ask. Never…Continue