It has been 4 long years without him.
If someone had asked me 4.5 years ago what the near future looked like for my Husband and me,
I would have answered, my Husband is near retirement and we are planning to do some light
traveling, we want to visit the rest of California, our native State. We want to visit other
beautiful places, Yosemite, Niagara Falls, the Grand Canyon, just to name a few. You see, my
Husband and I are/were nature lovers, on our free time we spent many afternoons visiting Natural
Habitats, spying on birds and other ground creatures with our binoculars. We loved getting out
early while the birds and animals were at their peak waking hours. We will also be visiting our
kids and Grandkids who live in Colorado. But mostly my Husband won't have to work anymore,
and will sleep in if he so chooses. Which for 27 years married, I never once saw him sleep in late.
But retirement never came for my Hubby and me together, and it never will now.
Instead, 4 1/2 years ago, October 2010, we learned for the first time, that my Husband was sick with Bone cancer in its fourth stage.
What followed was a complete nightmare. Nightmarish trip through hell. While, the rest of the world was
going on without us, my Hubby was suffering. What followed included:
Many doctor visits, specialists visits, oncologists, hospital stays, outpatient stays many of them, x-rays, Mri's, tests, biopsies, wheel chairs, too many blood transfusions, one botched transfusion at a hospital stay that led to edema in one leg which led to a blood clot. There was chemo-therapy, more blood tests, more needles poking, many pills, many more pills to offset the side effects of pills, yucky syrups, little food then
hospice, then no food ... it was like a Nazi experiment and my own Beloved Husband was the subject of this
To this day I don't know how he got bone cancer. He was a mild-mannered man, hard-working, always ready to lend a helping hand to neighbors and friends and family. He was a good provider to me and our 2 kids. He was getting ready to retire from work soon. And was looking forward to it. One of the last things he told me was, "I feel cheated!"
He was merely 60 yrs old. He passed away Feb 10, 2011. 4 years, 3 months, 5 days ago.