Hi. I am new to this site. I was widowed suddenly in 213. My wonderful husband aged 54 died of a cardiac arrest. The pain of his loss and trauma from witnessing it and feeling so helpless to save him will be with me forever. How ones life can change so abruptly and so totally! We were married 36 years and he was a fun kind adventourous man who still had much to give. It has been a struggle coming to terms with. I have kept busy but find it is still hard carrying on alone. At 60 I don't want to find a new relationship...how hard it would be not to compare! Grief is always with me. I do have good times too and this keeps me going! Like others. Good "couple " friends are not to be seen anymore..this adds to our pain!
Weekends are the hardest...seeing couples everywhere! Just spells out my loss!
I find staying home on those days sometimes less painful...I work in my large garden and this makes me feel so much better!
I want to enjoy life again, as we all know our time on this earth is precious! I think the hardest thing and the thing that we all yearn for is having someone to share our plans and dreams with.