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I think I have been in denial that tomorrow is year 2 of Don not being here. How does time keep moving forward and him not with it? I am in the midst of yet another transistion of new job , new home( second new job and third new home in 2 years ) and I have been crazy busy each day. Tomorrow has snuck up on me - looking at the calendar and wishing that I could just pass over July 19th and then I wouldn't have to deal with all of the emotions of thinking back two years ago to that horrible day.
I wrote a post here several months back about having to make some changes in my life and this transistion is fullfilling that promise to myself of moving forward. I was in survivor mode at least for the last year and half but now I am moving towards my "thriver mode" . I am dertermined to strive towards a truthful, peaceful , healthy and thriving life. Wish with all my heart I wasn't doing this without Don but I know that I need to do this for me. It is time to start to make a life that is worth living, worth waking up each day to begin. I have hope again for tomorrow . Hope that my boys will continue to heal and not be damaged to much by the lost of their dad. Hope that there are tomorrows that the pain will lessen and hope that life will be joyful again someday.
2 years is such a long time to not hear his voice, touch his hand, feel his arms or enjoy his laughter . Change continues to happen in our lives that we can't share with him no matter how much my heart aches to. As I go into this next year, my love for Don and our pledge to always honor his memory goes with me...