Another Sign

I'm always looking for signs from you.  I feel you with me all the time, but I need the physical signs too.

Like your sign today.  I've been thinking about this bike ride for weeks now.  Today I finally took the first step and talked to your brother about my ideas and when I'd like to do it.  The fortune in the fortune cookie came at just the right time. 

I needed it.  This week has been hard.  Disneyland wasn't the same without you.  It didn't have the same spark as it did the last 100 times we'd been there.  It just made me miss you even more.

I am very thankful they got your headstone in before we left.  I was afraid that I was going to have to deal with seeing it through other people's pictures.  I couldn't bare the thought of that.  That selfish part of me kicked in and I wanted to be the first to see it.  I wanted to be the one posting the picture of it and not someone else.  I know its crazy, but its just something I needed.

Did you like your flowers?  The kids and I decided you needed nothing but blue and white.  The woman at the flower shop was awesome, especially after the kids told her what they were for. 

We have some awesome kids, you know.  They jumped at the chance to tell a couple of people at Legoland and Disneyland about you.  About your "backwards plumbing," your transplant, and why organ donation is important.

I really do believe it coming from them impacted these people 100 times more than it would had it been me telling them the same thing. 

Once we get the car fixed and can drive more than 10 miles at a time, they want to jump back into the Donate Life events.  I thought we would need a longer break, but I think this is something that will help all 3 of us.