Today I planned on installing this virtual storage space on my computer Felix's brother sent to me so I can share pictures with him, his mom and sister. So before I did any installing, I loaded up his computer for the first time since I had to round up photos for Felix's wake. I started looking through our files and seeing his smiling face, our smiling faces, broke my heart all over again. Then I found a couple of sound files, one which he says "I love you Baby!"
My heart lurched so bad that it made my stomach hurt.
Not the first sound file I have found. Saturday something compelled me to charge up his phone (which has been disconnected) and after some digging around, I found more sound files. One sounded like he and his brother were trying to do an EVP session. For those of you who are unfamiliar with EVP, EVP is Electronic Voice Phenomenon, which is how ghost hunters capture voices of spirits on recordings. They will record open air, and play it back to see if they captured voices or sounds on the recording that they did not hear with their own ears. Felix was a huge believer of the paranormal. He got me into it too, watching ghost hunting shows on tv. LOL. Felix once did an EVP session at his older brother's grave (he died as a baby) and captured the sound of a baby's giggle. He always felt his hospital room was haunted. He didn't capture anything on the voice recording, though.
The one that got me was a voice recording for me. I don't remember him sending it to me, because I would have definitely saved it on my phone if he did... It's like he foresaw his destiny. He said,
"I may not be here tomorrow. I may not be here next year. But I'll be with you forever honey. I love you. You are the love of my life. Don't ever forget that."
I don't know when he recorded this. There is no date. His voice was shaky...and it will haunt me forever...
I also have a text message he sent me several years ago, where he said he'll love me forever even from beyond the grave...
GAH! I can't wait for the day to post something nice and happy. Something to put a smile on my and everyone else's faces.