After Laura passed on 7/15/14, I now had to do everything myself. There was no one preparing a meal while I was outdoors working. There was no one to talk to at mealtime anymore. All of a sudden I felt vulnerable. If we had a problem to solve, we would put our heads together to figure out a solution. Two heads are always better than one. Now it's just me, to figure it all out by myself.
I hiked alone on our familiar trails in quiet contemplation and meditation. I stood by the wood stove listening to piano and violin music while gazing at pictures and reminiscing about the love I had known. I never wanted to go to bed because of the memories of what it was like before. I would (and still do) stay up till 2 or 3am and then end up sleeping too late.
We used to ski together at the local mountain. Now I ski alone and it's a whole different feeling.
As I travel about, I am alone without my wife by my side and it's a whole different feeling.
December 30th will be her birthday. She will be forever 51 with a beautiful strong slender athletic body, long curly auburn hair and a beautiful smile.