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His Smile
I am in the middle of preparing my room to become truly mine and was encouraged to hang as many pictures I wanted. In the beginning I was very hesitant on it as I could not look at my John's face without crying. To me he is a handsome man: his hazel eyes sparkled constantly when mischievous and puppy dog when loving, his dark blonde hair neat (sometimes!) and NOT prone to graying as mine was, and his nose...oh how I love his nose, but the most attractive thing was his smile. He was happy go lucky and quick with a smile. He would smile so wide his eyes would close (to the consternation of every photographer).
Seeing his smile in the very beginning brought me to tears. I've reached a point that now I can smile back at him. If I do cry, it isn't out of what I've lost...It is of what I HAVE. I have his love. I have wonderful memories of us. I have HIM; all this fills me with joy. I don't miss him anymore because I know he is with me all the time. All I have to do his remember his smile.
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Comment by Angie aka Woody's Girl on October 28, 2012 at 2:20am -
His smile is contagious!! So happy to know it can make you smile again. Xoxo
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Comment by Susan B on October 27, 2012 at 10:48pm -
He used every bit of his face to smile--lips, cheeks, eyes...no wonder memories bring you happiness. Thanks for sharing with us!
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Comment by kimkirt (KK) on October 26, 2012 at 8:45am -
And what a beautiful smile it is, Emy. Thank you for sharing this with you. I am so glad his smiles make you smile now. Hugs!
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Comment by carolynne on October 25, 2012 at 11:06pm -
Emy, he really does have a fabulous smile! So infectious. I'm so glad you were able to hang pictures and find joy in the memories. I'm so proud of you, girl. xo
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Comment by Lori on October 25, 2012 at 9:16pm -
how can you not love that smile, thanks for sharing emy
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Comment by janet on October 25, 2012 at 7:14pm -
Emy, he has a beautiful smile. I am so glad you can remember the good memories and are able to look at his picture again and smile. He is always with you. I am so proud of how far you have come on this journey.
Hugs being sent your way. Wishing you Peace and Hope, sweet lady.
Janet
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Comment by recent loss(Ron) on October 25, 2012 at 6:40pm -
Emma that is a wonderful way to remember John, I can see why you were so in love with him.
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Comment by Lauralee on October 25, 2012 at 5:55pm -
Emy - John does have a great smile! I am envious of you for being able to experience some joy in your memories of him and I look forward to feeling that myself. Thanks for posting this - it gives me hope for feeling that joy at some future time too. I do keep photos of Robert in various rooms in my house but I can't always look at them nor face the memories of how great our relationship was without pain at this point.
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Comment by MrsD on October 25, 2012 at 5:20pm -
I can't imagine getting to this point, although I'm very glad you have.
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