I read recently that remarriage after widowhood is sometimes referred to as "Chapter 2". I can identify with that . This is my chapter 2 of love but in the span of my life I think I am on my "Chapter 4". Let me explain a little bit ... I was born to a unwed mom of 15 . Raised by my grandmother without much money but really felt loved . During my childhood I dealt with several emotional and physical issues brought on by my family environment. I left home at 18, moved across the country and started a new , stable life. When I was 21 my late husband entered my life . I fell in love married and lived mostly a wonderful 27 years with him . Completely loved and in love raising our boys and sharing a ministry job together.
During that 27 years , in 2005 I was diagnosed with Non Hodgkin s Lymphoma , went through 6 months of treatment- today I am cancer free! This life is hard. I am a faith believer.'All I know is this life is hard. I don't know why things happen but I believe that God allows struggles to come to prepare us for the bigger things to ahead.I wish this wasn't my story in some aspects but I also am very grateful that I have a story to tell! On July 19, 2010 my husband took his life. A loving ,kind husband and father and mentor to many. I don't know why , I don't have the answers but I do belive that God will use his life and my life for good. I don't know how many chapters are left to write in my story but I wake up each day thankful for this chapter and hopefully the many more to come. I love my life right now . It is really good :) I have imagined this life but didn't know if it was possible to find ever. The pain has eased ( not gone but manageable) The good memories far outweigh the pain of such a tragic loss and struggles of sickness and family issues.
I encourage you today to not give up on your story . This is your life - Even though we don't get to control what happens to us - we can control our feelings and reactions to our circumstances . Hang in there ... Breathe ... Better days and love are ahead:)