Well..i did it. I changed my profile picture to just "Me" instead of "Me and Paul". The reason for this is simple. It is just "me" now. I am still wearing my wedding ring, still feel "married" to my baby, I do not wish to date, but, I felt it was an important step in "moving forward" for me. I think it will help me accept there isn't an "us" anymore. I am not sure what has given me this new found attitude, except the passing of time. And I am certain, that this doesn't mean I'm done grieving the death of my husband. No, I still have more crying to do, more things to let go of. But I do feel that I'm inching my way towards letting go of the future that I thought I was going to have with him. And so, there is hope for me yet. And a different future, although tenuous and uncertain as of yet - I move forward in faith that my broken heart will continue to heal a bit more each day. It will never quite be the same I know, but it continues to beat. So, I keep on going.