I am new to this site and was directed here by an acquaintance that told me it may do me some good to read some of the stories and experiences others have gone through. I've only been a widow for about 4 months after a 32 year marriage. My wife was diagnosed with cancer 3 1/2 years ago, and after 3 years of being her sole caretaker at home, she passed away in my arms. I feel as if I died that day to, and each day does not get any better. My friends feel as if I need to move on, all of my family in Indiana think I need to move back there. I met my wife in Philadelphia, and we lived here for 27 years because of her family. It was my choice to stay here for her. I would have done anything to make her happy. We both have connecting plots in the cemetery, and I feel if I would move, I would be deserting her, unable to visit her as I do now, and would lose that connection. I am unsure if that is wrong. 32 years is a lot of time to erase, forget, and ignore.