It has been 3 1/2 years since my Husbands death. The first year was almost unbearable. I didn't know that I had that many tears in me! The second and third years have been better emotionally. I still get teary eyed but it is not a daily thing. There are more positive and good days now. I was watching a movies (love story) yesterday and it was a tear jerker. Tears were rolling down my face and my thoughts were of my beautiful Husband. I was full of sadness and felt so alone. I just went with the emotions and let the tears flow and worked through my feelings. Even though it was very difficult to go through it is part of the process. Today I feel grateful for the 31 years that I had with him. How lucky I was!