It has been two years now. To help me see how much i have accomplished I decided to make a list of my accomplishments
I no longer cry when I say i am a widow- still can't say single
I longer cry myself to sleep- sleeping is getting better
I got rid of all his clothes and shoes- still have a jacket and a sweatshirt we used to share
The bathroom no longer has anything of his- I just need to paint it and maybe put my stuff in their you know like makeup and hair stuff.
The car we shared i still have. But it is now bare to the bone.- except for the rosary my father gave me many years ago. shortly after my dads passing i hung it on the rear view mirror and have left it there since.
I replaced the stove and the fridge something we needed to do for a long time but couldn't get him to agree on.
I was finally able to change the curtains in the living room
I took off the divider that he hated so much. he was right the dining area is larger without it
I finally got someone to clean up the yard cut the branches and put edging around the trees
I no longer cry at shows we used to see together and still trying to see them without changing the channel- but i am not crying anymore
I have discovered new shows that i like to watch and new movies
I have gone back to work that was the hardest- he used to see me off to work every single time.
I am more familiar with what repairs the car needs when it needs them and where to go
I am better at managing my expenses now--. no more buying 50 dollar makeup
I now eat more salads, exercise and watch my weight (had gained but now lost ten pounds)
I still have a long way to go but i will get there ( home repairs, social activities, business)