After the tragic loss of my wife, I no longer understand time. I don't understand how it can go so slow, and so fast at the same time. It has been 2 months, and it still seems like just a few days ago. I can't believe it has already been 2 months! I have been without her for 60 days, I cannot believe it. I want time to speed up, because it is supposed to get better with time. I suppose maybe it does, some days are better than others. I am not crying constantly now. But, I don't want time to go fast because I am afraid of a future without her. I don't want to forget anything about her. I can still see her smiling at me, and winking at me. What if I lose these images? I can still hear her laughter, i still remember what it feels like to snuggle with her and rub each other. Will time take this away? I hope not! A future without her, I never would have imagined. Now, I'm afraid of losing my memories of her. I am glad I have some pictures, and some video. I need to preserve them, so I don't ever lose them.