Well, today is my 32nd birthday but it doesn't feel like anything special. While I have lots of friends and family wishing me a happy birthday, I am not getting love from the one person I want, my Ray. Why doesn't today feel special? It did for many years before I met him, it did all those years I was with him, but now it seems like another day but more hollow.
I feel like its not a special of a day because he is not here to share it with me. I keep hoping I will hear a song on the radio or see something while walking down the street and know its him telling me Happy Birthday Babe! I don't know why I think this, I haven't had any encounters like this yet, so why would today be any different?
Guess I'm just extra sad that I'm not with the one person I want to be with today. Guess I want a sign from him that he is okay and that he still loves me like I love him.