I am new on here, my husband passed away from cancer about two months ago. Even though for sometime I knew he wouldn't be with me for long, I guess I always thought it would be a little bit longer.... it's still so hard to believe he's gone. No matter what, my mind constantly wanders to thoughts of him when he was healthy and happy and full of life and then to when he was sick and had deteriorated . I'm keeping my head above water but some days just barely. I have a four year old that I have to try and maintain a sense of normalcy for which seems like torture sometimes. Just when I think I have it under control my son tells me how he doesn't have a daddy anymore and that he misses him. It's hard to talk to family and friends because they don't understand and don't seem to say the "right" things. I know it takes time.... just so hard.