I just returned from my California trip. My Mother and Aunt reuniting after not seeing each other for years was heartwarming. I am happy that I could make that possible for my Mother. I had a okay time, was mainly thinking of my Husband, who died 69 days ago. I didn't want to be a downer, so I put on a smile and acted like everything was fine. I was glad to get home this morning to my own surroundings where I feel comfort. I don't feel like I fit in anywhere. I don't want to be around anyone with these sad feelings and I feel like other's have had enough of my sadness and want me to move on, but I can't.