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This is the first blog I've felt the need to write in a long time. I've never really thought about dating much, I just knew I didn't want to have anyone in my life besides my husband. Well now it's been 14 months I'm finding that I still don't really want to date, but I truly miss the touch of another person. More then just a hug, Don't get me wrong Hugs are great. But sometimes we all need more, we need to feel that someone else in the world thinks we are desirable, worth spending time with, and yes I miss the SEX. It's been over 2 years and I just felt the need. So I may of done something very stupid because I wanted no strings, I didn't want to date and I've never had a one night stand. I met up with someone out of my past, which is married, and the sad thing is I don't feel bad about it at all. I know that makes me sound like a creep, and I'm sure if his wife found out she wouldn't be happy. The thing I do worry about is I thought this would be a one time. He on the other hand tells me he still loves me and will always care more about me then his wife. I didn't want a relationship and I still don't, it was just easier to have a one night with someone you have already had that with in the past. Rather then picking up someone you don't know. May have been a very big mistake, but no way to turn the clock back now. What a way to screw even more things up.