What i wouldn't give to just go back in time forty days. It was just an average night where my husband hang out downstairs playing on the Xbox and i was on my laptop playing The Sims. Probably not the usual things a couple of almost forty-somethings would be doing, but it was us. I would give anything to go back to that. Little did i know that night that my whole world would suffer a drastic change in the predawn hours of the next day. It was right about 4:30am on July 2nd when my world as I knew it ceased to exist. I was woken by a crashing sound to find my husband on the floor next to the bed. i do not know if he was trying to get up and fell or if he simply fell out of bed. He was shaking and unresponsive so i called 911 right away. The cops and the EMTs showed up pretty quickly, but they could not bring my husband back. He was already gone. In less than an hour my world had collapsed and I was alone. I would give almost anything to go back in time so i was sitting here with my husband and not alone. I do not like this new world . . . .